It's been a great time last thirty days. I didn't realize any gap between the end 2010 and the beginning of 2011...To me its been a time of creating my reality and then celebrating it. The blog-work has kept me busy and I had developed a less expressive style of communication with all of you, my Angels. I thought it's been a while since I last expressed my inner self...the thoughts that I have been pondering upon and the feelings that I have been sensing. In fact, I don't remember the last time I started writing without referring to any other source or website :-P
When I step out of myself and observe my human personality, the first thing I realize : It is beautiful to be a human. This is when I connect with my body and I feel extremely grateful for the five senses given to me. I remember one year back, my personality could not feel and think the same. This is when I realize not just knowledge, wisdom is the key too. The first six months of my transformation have been all about a quest for knowledge and continuous contradictions, synchronicity, psychic experiences and visitations. A path of self discovery followed and I started fitting myself in one of these labels : Indigos, Crystals, Rainbows and Starseeds. I had started following certain theories and creating new ones too. I was aware yet I had doubts. Every time I had a doubt, I trusted my intuition and did what my higher self asked me to do. When I was in full tune with my intuition, I have discovered myself as a full time lightworker at times and even a couch potato munching for hours, some other times! But when you carry the light of wisdom within you, you realize that all of it is perfect. It is perfect because it was your intuition that guided you. It was perfect because you carried pure love within your heart while you did it...whether it was about spreading knowledge or simply sitting to music on my couch all day! How can anything be not right when it is done with pure love and light for all there is?
So, here's the thing, for all my fellow lightworkers - taking a break in a while is a good thing when your intuition inclines you towards it! Trust your inner feelings. It is your higher self that needs your personality to explore your depths and discover more. I have realized that being with your own self without feeling lonely is the key. I resonate a lot with what Osho says: Loneliness and Aloneness are two completely different states of being. Loneliness is when you are always missing the "other". Aloneness is the wholeness. Loneliness is negative, an absence; aloneness is positive, a presence. Aloneness is like a peak, standing alone tremendously beautiful!
Aloneness is the joy of being with yourself and in this very great shift, we release what we no longer require to grow further. In this great shift, those who were once very close, now seem to drift away and we often disappoint ourselves as a result. But believe me, everything, literally, everything is going just perfect. It is perfect because you still hold the same love and compassion for those who have drifted away as you come to this realization of the greatest love - Love for all there is! It is perfect because you no longer require the interference of their energies for what you are becoming.
It is perfect because even with that knowledge, you still hold the same love for them, (and for a fact) even in higher degrees! Release with each breathe what you no longer require and fill it in with all your love and light.
When we follow our intuition, the air seems to be so much lighter. The world seems to look at you with a smile. Isn't this our own self being reflected back at us? I'm often asked how do we know that we are following our intuition. Well, there's no such thing, no such set of rules on "how-to-follow-your-intuition". Following your heart is the key! Trust your inner voice and signs will follow.
Today, after an experience that was close to life-changing, I have realized that I don't need any such labels like Indigos or Rainbows. It was a part of what all I released. There's a lot of knowledge out there and there's limitless space, limitless consciousness, nothingness, at the peak of aloneness and I am nothing more than one micro point of awareness that might have existed before the big-bang, or the creation, so to speak. And as I say this, I completely open my heart for all there is, and promise to operate from a place of pure love as that of our divine imagination.
Shanti.
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